Love of My LifeShe started high school last week—left this house in a ball of nerves and excitement and fear and delight, curious about this new, independent path she was about to walk, sans her mother’s hand to squeeze during the scary parts.

I offered to make her an omelet. She wasn’t hungry. I plotted to drive her two blocks to the bus stop. Her father told her to walk, and he parked a block away, in case her ride didn’t show up. She did let me take a picture of her dressed in her first-day-of school outfit, a custom we’ve practiced every year since her first day of school at age two. For this small piece of ritual, I am grateful. I stared at her picture through tear-filled eyes for at least an hour.

It’s so cliché, that whole “where did the time go—it feels like she was born just yesterday” thing. Still, the feeling is visceral. True. And really, it’s starting to sink in that the sweet little ball of chocolate I carried in my belly and pushed through my loins and fell totally, helplessly, eternally in love with all those years ago is a baby no more.

My firstborn child, my Mari, is 14.

There’s so much that comes with this age, things that make all the other milestones we parents tend to fret over—sitting up, first words, first steps, potty training, dry nights, first day of kindergarten, first lost tooth and all of that—feel trivial. After all, when they are little, they are dependent and vulnerable and our jobs as parents, as my mother once told me, is to “keep the kids from killing their fool selves.” We grown-ups are in total control. We know it. The children know it. There is no pushback. It is what it is.

But, my God, how those dynamics change when our babies mature and those hormones are in full effect and they start smelling themselves and get behind the wheel of their own thoughts and emotions and desires and… pull away. My Mari has her own ideas on how she wants to dress, what she wants to listen to and watch, how she feels about the world around her and how she wants that world to really see her. My once sweet and helpful and bubbly child has morphed into straight lines and sharp edges, with an attitude and opinions and a fierce hunger for independence—the kind that comes with a challenging of rules and a demand for self-sufficiency and a smidge, too, of secrecy.

I remember 14 and I (try to) understand—(try to) acknowledge that she has the right to like what she likes (within reason) and think how she thinks (with logic and evidence to back it up) and feel what she feels and that those likes and thoughts and feelings may not necessarily sync with mine and this is okay. As she evolves, so, too, do I.

So I loosen my grip. Just a little. Enough to let her wings flutter. For her to make her choices—in clothing, in friends, in the things that interest her. She can walk across the street from school to the Starbucks and the Earth won’t stop its rotational spin. She can talk to her best friend on FaceTime until midnight on a Friday and let out that primal teenage girl squeal when a Mindless Behavior video comes on TV and ignore her little sister and, for hours at a time, answer questions with one-word mumbles and the sun will still rise in the morning. She can choose the blue shirt instead of the green, wear the stretch jeans, purple shirt and sneakers instead of the hip pink dress and sensible flats, and rock her hair cascading on her shoulders instead of the gorgeous top-knot I think shows off her beautiful face, and she will still be… mine.

Still, allowing this feels like she’s taken one of my lungs. She’s learning to live. I can barely breathe knowing that while I am still a part of the equation she uses to factor how to legislate her space in this world, I am no longer the absolute in my 14-year-old’s math.

So this is where trust comes in. Not only in my daughter but my own parenting skills. My husband and I have done our best to steer our daughter down the right path—our family path. We have reminded and still do remind her constantly that the world is bigger than our little corner of Georgia, that a hairstyle or a stupid, ratchet reality TV show doesn’t define her or her blackness, that the price of her shoes or the label in her shirt is no measurement of her worth, that books and art and culture are as necessary as air and the only time she should ever stop learning and challenging herself is when she is gone from this Earth. And as she navigates high school, this new terrain of peer pressure and hormones and boys and no-nonsense teachers, I want—really need—my Mari to know that she has a voice and opinions and feelings and an experience that is valuable and important and true. And that she has the right to use them. To have them heard. Respected.

Silence is not an option.

This is all to say that raising a 14-year-old ain’t for punks. It’s when parenting gets real. I face the challenge head on, knowing that my one-on-one time with my daughter will be cut short in just four years, when she heads off to college. I accept the challenge, too, because I am hopelessly, helplessly in love with her.

This will be so until dolphins fly and parrots swim the sea.


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A child dies every 20 sec­onds from a vaccine-preventable dis­ease. Every year, 1.5 million children die of diseases that could have been prevented by a vaccine. Some moms do not have access to them. Others walk up to 15 miles just to get their children vaccines. We can change this real­ity and help save kids’ lives. Help me help them.

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Denene Millner

Mom. NY Times bestselling author. Pop culture ninja. Unapologetic lover of shoes, bacon and babies. Nice with the verbs. Founder of the top black parenting website, MyBrownBaby.


  1. Great post, great line: “But, my God, how those dynamics change when our babies mature and those hormones are in full effect and they start smelling themselves and get behind the wheel of their own thoughts and emotions and desires and… pull away.”

    • Thank you, David! This was, by far, one of the hardest posts I’ve ever had to write. It forced me to open my eyes to the very simple truth: my daughter is growing up. I appreciate your comment!

    • Love this comment, too! Describes 14, oh, so well!

    • Mary Koslap-Petraco

      So great to hear how a little girl blossoms into an adolescent! Now we need to ensure that all children throughout the world have this same opportunity. Making sure all children have access to life saving baccine preventable diseases!

  2. So you know I’m boo-hooing and smiling over here while reading this. And I don’t even have kids! LOL!! This blog piece is such a heart-strings- pulling-piece filled with love. No problem leaving a comment!

  3. I want to help. My daughter turned 13 this summer and soon will start 8th grade. I must be in some sort of denial because I just realized that means high school next year!! *can’t breath!

  4. I’m happy to help!

  5. Oh my goodness, Denene, I am totally a punk! What will I do when my baby girl turns 14?! I’ll come back to this post and remember that even one of my most respected parenting experts worried for her daughter’s future – just like I do.

    Congrats to you, Mari! Enjoy your high school years, knowing that even better ones are still to come. Believe your Mama. She is one smart lady. Muchos besos y abrazos. Xoxo

  6. Oh Denene, high school! I can remember that first day and wanting my mom but being scared to say so….

    • Morra—so can I! I remember that and being glad she worked in the morning, which allowed me to sneak her make-up out of the house in my book bag. Oy! So devilish, teenagers are. Thanks for your comment!

      • Going to a very strict girls school with uniforms and NO MAKEUP in Australia made for a very different experience. But still, I can feel your thought processes. I was terrified and so excited. And, did I mention terrified. All swirling together. What a stunning reflection of the complexity of this age and stage. Blessings to you and your Mari.

  7. Love your post–especially the thought that you not only have to trust her but trust also the parenting you’ve done. At some point there is a confidence that–although shaky sometimes–that you know your child will be all right–you’ve given her what she needs. Thanks for sharing this! And thanks to Walgreens and Shot@Life for caring about children all over the world.

  8. All soo true..I watched my 14yr old son march to the bus stop for High School this week and it sent a bit of a shiver up my spine. Loved him since he was but a flutter in my womb..letting go has been tough as I realized that he can walk to Starbucks after church with friends and return home on time and bring me change back! Or that staying up a little later will not make him a zombie. Yes independence is in full swing and its swing with just a little bit of swag at my house. I even got the hair thing with him, too. he has locks and I love them down they are beautiful..he likes them tied back..Moma gotta let go! I suppose I would have it no other way..I want him to grow up and be a productive, independent,strong, loving, god fearing man! Feel free to share your roller coaster ride and I’ll share mine…

    • Francella—yes, a roller coaster ride explains it EXACTLY! I’m just not ready to put my hands up into the air and feel that drop. Not yet. I’m working on it, though! LOL!

  9. What a wonderful post!!

  10. Shanniel Shakespeare

    🙂 can’t wait to be a parent 🙂

  11. Danene, your post took my breath away. “I am no longer the absolute in my 14-year-old’s math.” Brilliant. I’m there with my thirteen year old and every word of your post struck a chord with me – a symphony of truth this morning. Thank you! And thanks for supporting Shot@Life and vaccines for kids!!!!

  12. Delores Van Horn

    It is truly a wonderful time – watching our children grow and become real people. You have done a great job of describing the “mom” feelings that go with it.

  13. I am dreading this time with my little ones!

  14. Thank you for this thoughtful blog on the journey to 14.

  15. Oh my goodness, this took my breath away!

  16. Just finished 14 and oldest son turned 15. As bewildering as it is for them so it is for us!

  17. mommy of little ones

    Thanks for post. Makes me treasure time with mine when they are young.

  18. Imagine your 14 year old girl telling you she wants to go to boarding school…IN JAPAN! Leaving you 4 years early. But you are so excited she is CRAZY ADVENTUROUS, CRAZY INDEPENDENT, the coolest 14 year old you have ever met. I am going to miss her LIKE CRAZY but boy am I excited that I’m going to have the most fun with her when she’s grown up!

    • Wait, whoa! JAPAN?! Shelly, I’m so impressed by your daughter—and especially by your willingness to let her fly in the way she sees fit. I don’t know that I could do it. But I admire her will and your courage. Thank you for sharing that—and also for the comment!

  19. Oh, this is beautiful and I can relate.

  20. Wonderful story.

  21. wow! powerful and tru.

  22. Wonderfully written.

  23. My eldest is 12 and I’m already struggling with balance between allowing him to develop his own personality and wanting to whip some clear sense into him. I can’t even imagine what will happen at 14. Lord help me.

  24. Love this post!

  25. Yo, I think this line should be entered in the blogwriting Hall of Fame: “I can barely breathe knowing that while I am still a part of the equation she uses to factor how to legislate her space in this world, I am no longer the absolute in my 14-year-old’s math.”
    That, right there? Brilliance! You always manage to do it for me. You so perfectly captured the anxieties coursing through us parents of new teens. Especially of teen girls (yes, I’m going to go ahead and say that it is definitely different than when the teen is a boy!). Beautiful, beautiful job, my love.

    • Nick, I’m so glad you’re here with me on this journey. These girls need you—and are quite lucky to have their father in their lives in such meaningful ways. I think our kids are gonna be all right!

  26. Beautiful.

  27. Wonderful work as always. Our oldest daughter started middle school this year with lots of the same butterflies. Thanking God for another school year. “Seasons change, mad things rearrange”

  28. Girl, girl, girl, girl, girl. Say it. Again. May all parent of girls and those of boys read your words and feel connected to the message. May they reach out and back, in front of them, around them and lock arms with other parents in solidarity and a willingness to work together to protect our brown babies. We give them roots. The lessons help them grow wings to fly. You are the Thank you.

    • Oh man, Jill, you just brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for that. Yes, we DO need to lock arms with other parents in solidarity. It is the only way. And it is right. “It takes a village…”

  29. Awesome! I can comment for a vaccine! Great post.

  30. Great post. Thank You!

  31. A universal experience with many individualized touches. The concept you’re speaking to below was VERY hard with the oldest and is slightly easier, or maybe just less personal, with the second. This time, I know she’s only pushing me away to make more room for her growing independent self.

    “She can walk across the street from school to the Starbucks and the Earth won’t stop its rotational spin. She can talk to her best friend on FaceTime until midnight on a Friday and let out that primal teenage girl squeal when a Mindless Behavior video comes on TV and ignore her little sister and, for hours at a time, answer questions with one-word mumbles and the sun will still rise in the morning. She can choose the blue shirt instead of the green, wear the stretch jeans, purple shirt and sneakers instead of the hip pink dress and sensible flats, and rock her hair cascading on her shoulders instead of the gorgeous top-knot I think shows off her beautiful face, and she will still be… mine.”

  32. Beautiful post Denene…you have such an eloquent way of expressing what we all feel as parents! I swear that first sentence is a poem…it’s art!

  33. Thanks for writing this. My kid is 4, and already she’s getting more and more independent. I remember the days when I couldn’t even leave the room and it would make me crazy… now, I almost miss that. Parenting is not for the weak of heart.

    • The crazy thing is that as the kids move through their different milestones, you never, ever stop missing what’s passed. (But my youngest is 11 and she STILL won’t leave me to my alone time in the bathroom! HA!) Thanks for the comment!

  34. Great post! Thankful I have a minute before my kiddo turns 14

  35. Great work per your usual. =)

  36. Latisha F Scott

    Great read. Going through something similar as my little boy turns 10. Double digits. Plus he starts at a new school where the kids from the 6 elementary schools all merge into one upper elementary. I find myself wanting to save recordings of his little boy voice and wide eyed innocent million and one questions.

    • Ah—double digits! That’s when the magic happens. Get as many pictures and videos as you can. I’m sad I didn’t get more while my girlpies were younger. Thanks for your comment!

  37. Beautiful piece – thank you for sharing!

  38. Thanks for sharing!

  39. Great post, thanks for sharing. Let’s get more comments!

  40. Ahhh, yes, fourteen. I, too, have a fourteen-year-old. A boy. He, too, begins high school in two weeks. He is the youngest of my five children…and I am exhausted. And he knows it. And that’s not good. The one thing experience allows you is the comfort of knowing that your children will survive you, and you them. And this gift, which I’ve earned at least by now, is what frees me from constantly questioning myself. You really shouldn’t question yourself all through your kids’ adolescent years. That’s your teenagers’ job and they will do it well!

  41. What an incredible post, and I loved this ” until dolphins fly and parrots swim the sea.”
    Know this, you and Nick have raised two glorious baby girls, Mari is a brilliant, thoughtful, keeps her own counsel, heart of a lioness – young woman, and Lila, well, she is a mogul in the making, funny, sweet, and a freaking shark at business, all at 9 years old. I am very afraid, and hope she allows me to keep my business once she takes it over. But you’re right, raising these young girls into womanhood, ain’t for sissies, but Denene, you sure as hell ain’t no sissy. Frankly, you are not to be played with, and this I know, like I know my own name. So these two girls, will soar, because they have it in their DNA and you as their momma.

  42. Beautiful post!

  43. Erica Simone Turnipseed-Webb

    Powerful, Denene! As I read your words, I was really trying to imagine my nearly six-year-old rising first grader as a 14-year-old high schooler. Wow! Parenting is no joke, but parenting a teenager is a straight-up faith walk!

  44. Miss Denene, you got me over here bawling. My baby is FAR from 14 ,and I,have the urge to grab her and try to,shove her bavk in my womb. She’s starting first grade next month and I’m excited and terrified cuz she’s going to be out of the house all day and everywhere around me will be her things. She’s goinb to come home and tell me about her bff,and it’ll break my hearg that I’m not her bff anymore. But I’ll be happy that other people thinks she’s as awesome as I think she is. And I’ll thank sweet Jesus that He gave me this gift.

  45. Please comment to keep the donations and Blogust going! Wishing everyone a great day.

  46. My eyes filled with tears as I read this eloquent post. What a gift you have given your Mari in allowing her to fly. I’m just a few years away from this myself and I’m NOT READY! I’ll need to favorite this post to read it again. Sigh.

  47. wonderfully written … I don’t have children but this made me think back to when I was 14 (almost 50 years ago) and what my poor mother had to go through! but I know she loved me anyway and probably had many of the same emotions that you expressed. What a beautiful mother/daughter relationship you have!

  48. This is an exceptional piece. Letting our children grow and become who they are meant to be is such a bittersweet thing. I tell my children all the time that no matter how old they get, they will always be MY babies. However, I have had to learn with time that I cannot treat them like my babies but young men and women who are coming into their own. Thank you for this reminder!

  49. Denene Millner – there is a lot of love in what you say

  50. True words of wisdom

  51. Love this post. And I understand your feelings all too well as my “baby” turned NINE last week. It’s a whole new ballgame.

    And I laughed out loud at reading your mother’s take on parenting little ones: to “keep the kids from killing their fool selves.” SO TRUE!

  52. Great post! My baby girl is 7 and I already see her pushing the limits and trying to be independent and here I am fighting to get her to stay a baby!

  53. Beautiful post! Thanks for sharing and thanks for supporting Shot@Life!

  54. This is an excellent letter. It definitely addresses the concern that loving parents have for there children. This phase of parenting moves to another level, that of trust. One would hope that the care and nurture given over the span of 14 years by the parents to the child would account for some measure of love and respect. But, reality seems to display a different view when hormones and peer pressure become a catalyst at this juncture of the teen’s life. This puts the loving parent between that proverbial rock and hard place. I agree that this is no time to ‘punk- out’, more than ever the parent must be understanding, yet unwavering in the core values that have been put forth up to this point.

  55. Amazing story, although I am not a mom myself yet, I imagine that someday I will feel all these same things!

  56. This by far is my favorite part of your post and advice similar to that my own mother gave me when I was 14: “We have reminded and still do remind her constantly that the world is bigger than our little corner of Georgia, that a hairstyle or a stupid, ratchet reality TV show doesn’t define her or her blackness, that the price of her shoes or the label in her shirt is no measurement of her worth, that books and art and culture are as necessary as air and the only time she should ever stop learning and challenging herself is when she is gone from this Earth. ” Such wonderful advice that every teenage girl needs to hear! Thank you so much for your post!

  57. Wonderful. Thank you so much for sharing. My daughter’s wings have just started to grow, at 9, and the very idea shakes me to the core. I’m so not ready, but reading this has helped to see that I need to start getting ready now.

  58. Lovely post. Thanks for sharing.

  59. I’m really enjoying all of the blogs this year! Thank you.

  60. Beautiful post! I’m sure she will become everything you hope for and surprise you with things you could never imagine 🙂

  61. This is such a beautiful story!

  62. Thanks for bringing this issue to light, Denene!

  63. Beautiful post.

  64. whatpalebluedot

    This is what it’s all about, delivering her to adulthood with her mind intact and her heart open.

  65. Beautiful, and so true. I have two girls as well who are teens. It is not easy, but it is wonderful.

  66. I’ve been through two 14-year-olds thus far. Know that, even if they run off the rails or reject you completely for a time, the good values you instilled in them when they were young are still under the behavior and attitude, and they will come back to you – at least my two did – with sincere apologies and thanks for raising them the best I could.

    And thank you for supporting Shot@Life.

  67. As the mother of a 16-year-old girl who has been fighting so hard to define herself on and by her own terms, I applaud you and Nick for raising such a beautiful, self-determined girl. It will be hard to watch her struggle and sometimes fail, but she is blessed to have a mom like you by her side.

  68. 14 is a great time in a childs life. They are really starting to grow up and become independent. I’m glad so many people are replying, it means more vacinations for kids 🙂

  69. How very beautiful. I think my own mom feels/felt the same, and reading this opened my eyes to that. Thank you. Best of luck to you guys 🙂

  70. Hi there; I am very touched that you share such personal stories and details and even more so that you are contributing to this great cause so thanks and kudos! also endearing to read how you answer your posts, something rare to see but very commendable! <3 I wish you and your great family the best of luck and am grateful to know that there are wonderful, love-filled families out there taking care of each other and filling this world with good energy! Best of wishes and thanks for your contributions. Cheers, VD

  71. Beautiful sentiments. Best wishes to Mari in high school.

  72. This made me sad and happy and nervous and reflective. Thank you.

  73. I can remember 14 so vividly, and this touched me so deeply.

  74. Love this! My baby is 12, almost 13 and this is happening all too fast. I thank you for this.

  75. You have a beautiful writing style and voice.Thank you for your contribution to Shot@Life. You provided a wonderful story for a wonderful cause! I especially liked when you said “I want—really need—my Mari to know that she has a voice and opinions and feelings and an experience that is valuable and important and true. And that she has the right to use them. To have them heard. Respected.” She is lucky to have you to help guide her through those wonderful yet challenging years! Best wishes!

  76. Mentewab Nesanet

    What a touching & sweet post! As mother of five (two teenage girls currently–Please pray for a Sistah!), I realize this is an emotionally-filled time for parents and teens. You are blessed & your daughter will do well with the arsenal of knowledge and love she’s been given. I’m definitely aware that rearing children is NOT for the weak. I’m a WarriorQueen! Be blessed & pray for my strength to be renewed.

  77. Yes yes yes yes yes. As the parent of a 17 year old who recently tweeted “I can’t wait to move out.” I was quite tempted to tweet back (except that would have gotten me blocked LOL) “feeling’s mutual.” But it’s hard and you’re right – it’s visceral. Thank goodness we moms and dads have each other to vent to. 🙂

  78. Loosing the grip is the hardest part, but it’s necessary if we want our kids to thrive. Great post.

  79. Beautiful!

  80. 14, high school, wow — the memories. For the record, the guys are terrified too.

  81. Oh man. I don’t want to even THINK about Le Kid going to high school. Actually, we had one of *those* mornings today…so the quicker the better. lol.

    Anyway, BEAUTIFUL post, D. I hope I raise him up to be as dope as the girlpies!

  82. My last formal year of schooling was at 14. After that it was time to go to work to support my mother and younger sister. My Dad had died when I was 10 and I was the man of the house. But the encouragement of my wife in later years got me back and school and I got my GED (equivalent) by going to night school. Luckily I was a voracious reader and would absorb half a dozen books a week. Knowledge comes in many ways. So does growing up. Thanks for this post.

  83. This is so beautiful.

  84. The title of your post got my attention. My oldest will be 12 in 2 weeks. Yesterday was the first day of middle school. It was a disaster. His nervous energy resulted in hormonal imbalance that destructed everyone in his path – myself included. I wanted to run and hide and poke my eyes out. No one said it would be this hard! Today was what I had hoped for yesterday.

    What a beautiful post, as always. All the best for Mari. XOXO

  85. You have done a great job with your girls! They’re amazing little women. Trust yourselves and all will be well.

  86. Oh, God bless you, Denene, because there is still sooo much more to come! I’m here to tell you as the mother of 24- and 29-year-old women, IT. DOES. NOT. STOP. And I guess, in some ways, that’s a good thing. 🙂

  87. Oh gosh… my firstborn is also 14. I am a mix of pride and fear. We are in a good spot right now and I keep on praying we won’t hit the teenage days I hear about, though it gets bumpy. Especially as the wings spread more and more…

  88. Wonderful! Thanks so much for sharing in honor of this great cause!

  89. Thank you for explaining so well the mother’s viewpoint of this age in a child. I have never had children, but I remember the whirlwind of emotions I felt when I first went to high school especially as I had to miss the first week due to a surgery. It was hard to adjust to the changes, but all the sorrows and joys I experienced were worth it. It was a time of trying to figure out who I was and time of unending questions. A time that had a great influence on my future. I am glad that your daughter has you as support if ever she has need during this time as you seem to have a great understanding. May she just bloom beautifully into whatever she wishes to be.

  90. I would be leaving a comment no matter what, today. So wonderful that Mommy (and Daddy) know that Mari is going to be starting to make her way into the world. She is going to start making decisions for herself, that will affect her. The great thing is that she has received wonderful advice, care and love from her family that will help her navigate her way through these years. We do have to let our children spread their wings, this is what helps them to become wonderful adults. You only cried for a hour, how strong you are. Oh well there is still the trip to college in the future, for this you will need boxes of tissues. LOL and loads of love to your family.

  91. Thank you for your post!

  92. Thanks for sharing 14 again.
    Bravo, Walgreens and Shot@life!

  93. I remember first day of high school I threw up,was so nervous. Thank you for sharing your story.

  94. Certainly an interesting time … looking at my 23-year- old daughter, I am amazed at her development and the young woman she has become … now, I’m back there again with my 14-year-old son …

  95. “…while I am still a part of the equation she uses to factor how to legislate her space in this world, I am no longer the absolute in my 14-year-old’s math.” And, I bawl.

  96. I have been watching a couple of mothers close to me get ready for fourteen as well this summer. As with them, I think the parenting you’ve already done will serve Mari in good stead. Thanks for your post.

  97. Yesss. This was so beautiful. And scary as hell. LOL! I’ll be there in twelve years and while that sounds like a really long time, I know it isn’t. Hats off to you, Denene and Nick.

  98. This a very good post. I have 3 daughters, one in her second year of college, the middle one a Junior in high school and my baby 6th grade. Even the decisions they make that I don’t agree with, still forces me to just revel in their amazement. I am proud to say that I have done a good job and because of that I have some extraordinary girls!

  99. The best you can do is make them as competent and independent as possible. My kids hopped in their cars and drove themselves to college. We all loved their ability to do that.

  100. Thank you for sharing your heart. My nephew just turned 14. What a great time of self discovery he has started. Already experienced it with my own daughter. She is 19 now. I still have two more kids to go. One is right around the corner and the other is still a long way from it. I am so blessed to be able to live in a country that allows those thoughts of the future happen when so many countries focus on just getting their children past age 5.

  101. Wonderful post! thank you for sharing!!!

  102. OH! Your post expresses all the emotions I’m feeling THIS MINUTE. My oldest is 14, and she will begin high school next week, and . . . well, I don’t have to tell you. Brilliant writing.

    Thank you for being involved with Shot@Life!!

  103. My daughter starts high school this year too. I am nervous but excited. Can’t wait to see what she does!

  104. Sniff sniff. Feeling it over here, big time. Mine is starting her Jr. Year. Sigh.

  105. I send my oldest son off to his final year of public school (he’ll be a senior this year). Talk about having one of your lungs ripped out! My baby starts kindergarten the same day, and I don’t know if I can take two milestones in one day.

    Raising a child is not for the faint of heart, but my oldest has already shown me that it is well worth all the worry and sadness because they make the bright days even brighter.

    Blessings to all those raising children…

  106. Awe! My oldest is 8 and the time sure has flown.

  107. My oldest are twins and they are 15. This post really spoke to me. Thanks for writing it!

  108. Love, love, love this post! (Pretty sure I was quite a handful for my mom when I was 14!) Such a crazy time of life– but you captured it pretty well! Enjoy this time!

  109. Well said! You touched my heart.

    My youngest child just graduated from high school and once again the “math” is changing. I am fortunate that my children all have gone to school locally (we have many great schools in southern California) and have lived at home but it is also a difficult transition. My heart sings as I watch them become caring, responsible adults but it makes it no easier to let go. I love the person each one of them has become. I enjoy the time we spend together and my relationship with each of them now includes a level of friendship. But, it is nice to know they still need me sometimes, even if it is just to talk.

    I have found many rewards as my children have grown but my newest is a grandchild. The love for him is just as full as it was for my children but with the added bonus of the freedom to “just enjoy” and not have as many of the worries I had when my children where that young. It brings tears to my eyes as I watch my daughter with her son and see what a wonderful parent she is becoming. And, every once in a while, she thanks me for being such a great example and brings a tear to my eyes. Amazing.

    You sound like an wonderful parent and have many great experiences ahead. Thank you for sharing.

  110. Great post, as always.

  111. Even though I’m not a mother myself, I can appreciate this article. My dear nephew is now 15. I miss the little boy who was my buddy, but love to see that he’s growing into a fine young man. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

  112. Right there with you. (Mom to a 14 year old girl, 12 year old girl, 8 year old girl and a 5 year old boy.)

  113. I have six years until we get to this milestone, but it is closer than I want it to be. Thanks as always for sharing your insights with us!

  114. Thanks for supporting Shot at Life!

  115. Thanks for this!

  116. I’m just like the others I Love this post. It made me cry and smile too. As I have a 14-year old daughter who is my first born going off to high school. And it’s so hard to release those strings. But I know we do have to let them grow , but sometimes I wish I could turn back the hands of time just for the moment. Thanks for writing this. I am going to send it to others I know would love to read this.

  117. Enjoyed reading about your daughter growing up. Thank You for your participation in this campaign.

  118. Thanks for supporting Shot at Life!!

  119. Great piece – trusting and respecting our daughters is the first step to giving them confidence and self-respect!

  120. Thanks for supporting Shot@Life!

  121. Virginia griffith

    What a delightful blog. My daughter is now 45 but I still remember that big step she made to high school. Independence is what we all wish for for our children but it is hard to let go.
    I must say that the rewards continue to come and now I have the pleasure of a 14 year old granddaughter taking that big step.
    With you love and support your daughter will be fine and so will you.

  122. Thank you for this. My oldest is 8 months and I know I will look back the same way- where did the time go and what happened to my sweet, joyful girl? She won’t look at me with the ‘that’s mommy!’ smile anymore. Instead she’ll give me a mischievous grin and show me how she can fly. My heart will break as my hands try so hard to let go.

  123. “I am no longer the absolute in my 14-year-old’s math.” – This sums up how I feel about my twins. They just turned 14 and started high school.

  124. Just commenting to help!

  125. This made me cry! It’s one of many bitter sweet times in the lives of our kids and parents.First day or school, first day of high school, graduating from high school, it goes on and on. Everyday they get more independent and need us a little less. Both my sons are married now but even though I know they don’t “need” me anymore, they still love me and want me around. That feels great! Mari, who sounds like an incredible young woman, will still want you & her Dad around too. Don’t you worry about that! And she wants you both in the picture now, even when she acts like she really doesn’t!
    God bless ♥

  126. I remember these days so well. My husband and I have two daughters, now 31 and 33 (where does the time go). They have become amazing women that I am proud to say that I helped to raise. Truth be told, they raised me as well. Thank you for the post.

  127. Lovely! Thanks!

  128. wonderful post in support of shot@life!

  129. Oh my goodness—fabulous perspective and insight into 14! My daughter is 8 1/2 and every day I think about what the future brings with excitement and trepidation.

  130. TFS! Wish I had thought to take a first day of school photo of our 2 kids! What a great tradition!
    Now ours are on their own. I’m still putting together scrapbooks for them!
    ~Diane in TN

  131. As a “young adult,” reading pieces like this makes me appreciate my parents so much. Great post.

  132. Great post! I feel your pain. It’s been 16 years since my daughter was 14. I don’t remember how I felt about her going to high school. Probably a lot like you. But you raised her right and you still are doing it. She’s got a wonderful family who loves her. She’ll do fine.

  133. She will be amazing, just like you! Thanks for posting!

  134. Wonderful balance between holding on and letting go, both at ghe same time.

  135. One more vaccine!

  136. I have years until my children will be this age, and I’m already terrified!

  137. Add one more vaccine! Happy to help…scared for when my daughter reaches 14!

  138. My firstborn, my son, is also fourteen and starting high school soon. This post perfectly expresses some of my feelings about letting him be who he is, trusting he will remain the young man we’ve raised him to be.

  139. Thanks for sharing.

  140. Thank you! My first baby enters middle school in just a few weeks–yikes! Would all mothers were able to experience the trepidation of having their baby reach her/his 11th birthday.

  141. what a great post. they’ll always need you. i’m 43 and still need my mama… 🙂 (i LOVE the site redesign, by the way!)

  142. As I prepare to drop my youngest off to college this weekend, I feel your sentiments exactly. I am holding back the tears and have had many of pep talks with my own peers to ease my own anxieties, fears and concerns. It’s my BABY whose now an 18 y/o young adult. Where did the time go!

  143. “One word mumbles”…I remember those. Now that I am away from home, my mom and I talk for hours at a time. Growing up is a roller-coaster of changes.

  144. Very descriptive, well-written post about you and Mari in her 14th year.

  145. Great post, and great insight! I am about to embark on the same journey with my daughter. I am more nervous than she is!

  146. First day of high school seems so long ago… Thank you for sharing your story!!

  147. Yasmin Blackburn

    Beautiful perspective. Something to get you through all those hormones 🙂

  148. So true, 14 is a wonderful/terrible age for a mom! Don’t panic: respect and good sense, stand back and come forward, be on watch and serene…until dolphins fly and parrots swim the sea!

  149. Such a beautiful, beautiful meditation on that age! Our daughter is nearly half that age, but I see flickers of all that independence in her even now. Thank you for this poignant, love-filled portrait of what we have in front of us! And thank you, too, for lending your powerful voice to Shot@Life and the kids who need it.

  150. Really hard to breathe over the lump in my throat!

  151. My children are only 4 and 6 and I’m already preparing for those rough and tough days ahead. Thanks for the heads up and the sincere reminder that letting go isn’t always easy!

  152. I was filling out enrollment forms for child 4 and child 5 and I couldn’t believe one was in 10th and one was in 11th grade. Not little girls anymore but young women.

  153. Supporting the cause and agree that parenting a teenager is NOT for punks!

  154. Will be at this same point one year from now! Beautiful post for a wonderful cause. Best wishes!

  155. Beautiful post! Love the sentiment–Love the cause and I Love this blog!!!

  156. Excellent! I need to read your blog more often! I should’ve been doing that anyway.

  157. I so wish I can archive this and pull it out in 7 years when my baby will be turning 14….because somehow I know that with her precociousness now….Im sure to have a teen “smelling herself” too.Continue your good work!

  158. Beautiful! Thank you for sharing. 🙂

  159. Your post very much BLESSED me…I have a 14 yr. old daughter and it is very challenging!

  160. Thank you and I’m happy to help

  161. Incredibly beautiful

  162. Rick and family

    Please stop eating pigs. They are kind, loving smart animals who have love to give and share and who care as much about their family members as any of us do.

    • Rick: I am a meat-eater. Pork is included in my list of things I like and choose to eat. If you feel differently, you are free to eat as you please, as am I. Thanks for your comment.

  163. No doubt about it, 14 is when the rubber meets the road. You grasped the beauty, wonder, and sheer stark terror of it so well.

  164. Loved the post. I wonder if we ever let them go? Happy to help with the vaccines!

  165. Great post girl. I’m over hear trying not to hyperventilate and install security cameras in the locker of my 5th grader! I have no idea what I’m going to do at high school. I’ve been plotting doing some recon a la’ LL Cool J in Toys. I’m not saying stitching up an outfit that completely blends in with the brick wall is going to be easy, but…

  166. It wasn’t very long ago that I was 14 (just 4 years!). Seeing my little sisters approach that age is certainly eye-opening; I never knew how annoying I was (or clueless!) What they crave (and what I craved and loved) is simply small bits of advice and chats about important things to help guide them. Whether driving in the car, walking through the mall, jogging in the neighborhood, or sitting in the living room, we teens value casual talk with our beloved parents 🙂

  167. Great post! I am struggling to let go of my 14 year old as well. Wish sometimes I could turn the clock back to age 4. 🙂

  168. Great post!

  169. You did a wonderful job writing about the highlights and challenges of your daughter’s life. You described your love for her beautifully. My niece is a few years away from 14 so I appreciate your insight into what we have to look forward to. She too has to learn some of the life lessons you spoke of as she is the most beautiful result of a blonde hair, blue eyed father and a dark African-American mother. Thanks again for sharing and being part of this month’s Shot@Life.

  170. Great story!!! Thanks for sharing 🙂

  171. I loved this post. I am just about to enter the world of teenagers, as my oldest will be 13 next month. I am excited and scared for him (and me) all at the same time. Thanks for the insight!

  172. Can definitely identify these days. My 12 y/o son is definitely to the ‘ignore his little sister for hours’ stage! He mumbles very few words during those hours!

  173. Good post. Happy to join the cause. Better late than never.

  174. You captured so well this phase of parenting. I wouldn’t go back, but this is surely not for punks! (13 and 15 year olds in this house.)

  175. Thank you for sharing the wonders of your daughter – what a big day, first day of high school! And for doing it in the service of such a good cause.

  176. Loved this post! I already am in disbelief that my boys are 2, and I know they will be 14 in the blink of an eye!

  177. 14. Whew! I’m on my way…*scared*

  178. 14 was one of my favourite ages! Made a lot of new, good friends that year. Thanks for your post!

  179. REF-Raising 14year old,Teenagers/beginning of adult child hood should address child rights as education,play,freedom,dignity&provided with affection&care by society.School
    education&school health services should be extremely important for child physical&mental
    Awakening health consciousness in children should be responsibility of school health services.

    • I agree that school needs to be a place for children to learn about health consciousness, but as a parent, I do feel I’m more responsible for that education when it comes to my kids. Thanks for your comment.

  180. Reading this today as my daughter gets her acceptance letter for college/university and heads off in a few short weeks. Yeah – raising kids ain’t for punks 🙂

  181. Roots and Wings – that’s what we try to give them in just the balance that will send them out into the world knowing there’s always gonna be home.

  182. Thank you for a wonderful post and for helping Shot@Life in this wonderful campaign!

  183. I shouldn’t have read this at work…tears are streaming down my face and I’m hoping no one walks by my office. This was a beautiful post. I am more than a decade away from this milestone with my own son, but already it feels like it will be here too soon. I can only do my best in the years between and hope we’re both well prepared for those challenges that are unique to teenagers. Thank you so much for sharing.

    And thank you for supporting Shot@Life. There are so many moms out there who don’t have access to basic medical care, and I hope we never take it for granted.

  184. Yes – Everything you said. Enjoy this moment. These high school years will pass even more quickly, no matter how much you might want to freeze time just a little bit. (Mine just started her senior year and when I’m feeling a little wistful — when I’m not panicking over the whole college thing). This was a lovely post.

  185. Great story! I worry all the time about my children growing up especially in the world we live in where there’s so many people out there with no respect (not only towards each other, but towards themselves) and a lot with not a care in the world about how they may affect one another. When I first had my daughter I worried about when she started grade school, now I worry when the teen years come. I always teach my children to treat people the way they want to be treated. I will keep instilling that in their heads for years to come. Thank you for sharing and always happy to help a great cause.

  186. “Still, allowing this feels like she’s taken one of my lungs. She’s learning to live. I can barely breathe knowing that while I am still a part of the equation she uses to factor how to legislate her space in this world, I am no longer the absolute in my 14-year-old’s math.”
    Wow. Just wow. Sad that here in the UK High School begins at 11 years of age and all that happens even sooner. You describe it all well.

    • Michelle, I think I would lock my kids in the basement if high school started at age 11. My youngest is that age. She does not need to be around 14 year olds. Like, at all. Wow! Thanks for the comment!

  187. What a beautiful post!

  188. Great post. Made me think back on my own first day and just how transformative (and scary) that time was. I still feel the effects of that age and will keep this in mind when my kids get there.
    And thanks for supporting the Shot@Life campaign.

  189. What a wonderful description of a wonderful day! My boys are older; college aged, but the feelings are still the same. Thanks for reminding me what 14 was like.

  190. What a great story. I was transported into your world and that of your 14-year-old daughter.

  191. So hard to let our babies grow up! Beautiful post.

  192. This is awesome! Amazing times ahead for you and Mari, I have no doubt. Look forward to you doing great things!

  193. Love this for you and me. I too have a 14 year old. And as I watch her blossom in front of my eyes, it’s beautiful and scary. Just know we’ve set great examples as women of wonder. So now it’s time to lovingly guide and support. Hugs and love to us and them!

  194. This post is so beautiful that read it a few times to soak in the power of the emerging woman of your daughter… reminding me of MY 14 and my two daughters’ 14 and coming up to my two granddaughters’ 14. The independence and dependence, the seeking and the shelter, the going and staying, the discovery and the comfort… but always the LOVE, the great LOVE and wisdom of the generations watching the emergence. Mesmerizing. Thank you for this, and thank you for your great support of Blogust and Shot@Life so every Mama and Grandmama and Great-grandmama may see the same moments and milestones.

  195. Excellent post! And thanks for supporting Shot@Life!!

  196. Thanks for sharing and taking part of the Shot at life campaign! Beautiful story.

  197. I’m a few days late reading this, but I’m glad I did. Such a beautiful post! They really do grow up so fast, don’t they? But every minute of it is wonderful!

  198. They grow so fast and I am grateful for being part of this great campaign. Vaccines save lives!

  199. Happy to help out a great cause.

  200. The teen years are hard on everyone. Good luck to you and Mari, and thank you for this wonderful post.

  201. In 6 days, 6 hours, and 22 minutes my middle daughter starts high school. She turned 14 last month, and is a blossoming young woman, full of opinions. Although my oldest daughter is 21, your eloquent post still sums up my current feelings. I tear up every time I think about my 14 y/o starting high school, and needing me less. Thank you for this wonderful post. I’m a punk!

  202. Such a beautiful post, thanks for sharing!

  203. Thanks for sharing your emotions!

  204. Thanks for sharing your story! Every child matters!

  205. Thank you so much for writing this post and supporting Shot@Life! I’ve volunteered on the campaign since the beginning and believe so passionately in the cause.

  206. Thank you and thank Shot@Life for this blog post!

  207. Great post. Thanks for supporting Shot@Life

  208. Thanks for helping out with this cause!

  209. That balance between being heard and letting oneself listen – if someone finds a foolproof way of delineating it they’ll make a fortune!

    Thanks for supporting Shot@Life!

  210. Gosh, I loved this post. There were so many great lines in it, like, “…(try to) acknowledge that she has the right to… think how she thinks (with logic and evidence to back it up).” Ha, loved it. Good advice! And cheers to you for supporting Shot@Life!

  211. And just when I’m all…I’m just leaving a comment for the vaccine, I get teary eyed! Love this!!!!! <3

  212. Just beautiful. Gotta love those teenage girls.

  213. Hi, my kids are 4 & 6 and I too dread this moment but also don’t want to smother their freedom, how else will they become confident individuals? Your blog made me smile as it let me know that I am not the only parent in the world who feels like this and has gave me a thought of learning to embrace this stage rather than dread :0)

  214. Here’s to the vaccines!

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