Any woman who has ever been through a miscarriage knows how brutally painful it can be. It is literally the death of your child—a part of you gone forever, a child whose cheeks you will never get to kiss. In her upcoming documentary that airs on HBO (Feb. 16), Life Is But A Dream, Beyonce reveals that the pain pushed her into the recording studio. We know that she thankfully soon got pregnant again with Blue Ivy, so that makes this a bit easier to read.
“About two years ago, I was pregnant for the first time. And I heard the heartbeat, which was the most beautiful music I ever heard in my life. I picked out names. I envisioned what my child would look like… I was feeling very maternal. I flew back to New York to get my check up – and no heartbeat. Literally the week before I went to the doctor, everything was fine, but there was no heartbeat. [And then] I went into the studio and wrote the saddest song I’ve ever written in my life, and it was actually the first song I wrote for my album. And it was the best form of therapy for me.”